... and why do i have to go through this??

amongst the varied experiences in my life, i've had to walk through an odd, 'new' and particularly painful route this past month. like i typically ask of anything and everything that occurs in my life, i kept asking "why?", "what..?", "when..?", "where..?" and even the most dreaded "what if..?"

as i kept mullin over the events and replaying every scene in my head, trying to figure out what i could have done / do differently to avoid this particularly challenging path, i remember thinking "why me? why do i have to go through this? i have wronged nobody!!"

... and then the answer came to me.. today.

a random camp counselor who i'd just come into contact with in the last week stopped by my office "to say hi".. this is when my day-long plan - to 'sneak my way out' through the front doors of the building on time - hit a dead end.

as we spoke for a few minutes, i realized she was talkin about painfully similar circumstances, she was travelling through the same, maybe worse, road that i had treaded.. i was able to talk to her, have empathy (not just sympathy) and pray with her, carrying a portion of her burden - not just pretending to understand (not just saying, "yeah, i know how you feel", but really partaking of her feelings of pain and hopelessness)

there is a reason.

..for everything.

and now i know why.

of rest and stillness...

so it is Friday.. i've been looking forward to this day all week now. No, not that i did not enjoy what i did all week, but it's just that i've been having particularly long (12-hour) days and an extremely tight schedule all week.

i happen to work for a non-profit organization that also runs a summer day camp. so during summers, i kick into fifth gear and run around from dawn till dusk in a bid to shrink my somehow-self-replenishing to-do lists (pertaining to both - my regular job + my camp job)..

while i love what i do, i also long for the quiet. i turned down multiple requests to step out during the weekend, just because all i wanted to do was stay in at home and just listen to music or write some more music. i've told myself that all summer, i am going to be intentional about resting. i could read, write, create music, listen to some, or even just sit and talk with family (one of my favorite things to do - quality time person that i am)

there's something about just sitting still that calms my nerves, recharges my batteries, inspires creativity and enhances productivity soonafter.

i believe God knew that because He Himself rested on the seventh day after getting done with the monumental feat of creating the entire universe - i don't believe that He needed to rest, really. He is God - the Creator of the universe - the Source of energy - He has surplus of it..

He rested in order to show us that we were designed to rest and recharge after laboring hard.

so..

.. i'm at rest.

my first blog entry

so.. i guess i finally took the big plunge.. i've decided to let the curtain fall..

GINA has started BLOGGING!!

for a person who thinks as much as i do (yes, i've been told a zillion times that i 'think too much'), i thought it would be worthwhile to share with you but a few snippets of what goes on in my head, for what they are worth..

not to mention, i do have a few blogger friends out here who've tried to talk me into bloggerdom.. (yes Bungi, you topped the list!)

i just had to wait till i felt like it.. i guess that's gina-typical..

so people, i have arrived.